I really wanted a day off from being the mother of three kids this morning.
It's just a build up of too much of the kids niggling and annoying each other and me being at the beck and call of a four month old. I'd just like a day off. Of course, then I'd probably resent it all more after my day off. But I would like kids who didn't bicker constantly. Teaching them to respect each other is hard. Teaching them to respect me is hard. Although I did notice the irony of the following conversation as it was occurring yesterday afternoon:
Me: You always argue with everything I say at the moment.
Little Miss Enthusiasm (in her particularly obstinate growl that she has): No I don't!
Me: Yes you do.
Little Miss Enthusiasm: No I don't!
I love my Fridays because they are a day when I just stay home with Little Sister and we have a quiet day, and she has the best chance at sleeping all week. Except today she has her 4 month immunisation, so we have to go out for that. The one good thing about this is that she's woken up with conjunctivitis so at least I don't have to make a separate appointment for that.
I'm just a little bit weary at the moment, and I can't work out any way that I can make it particularly better at the moment. And afterall, they're my kids so I have to look after them and somehow learn how to do it well.
God, give me strength. Please.